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A night sky filled with stars,
oh i wish to see you,
Hoping your brightness makes me to be cheerful.

Hot,dusty,crowded,corrupt,dilapidated egypt finally getting cooler.And i wish to buy new daffaya(heater) for this new coming winter so that my room always keep warm and makes me comfortable especially during study and sleep. 2 days left for ENT exam while i am still not finish yet the textbooks. i am so worried about this exam because i am a slow reader and not finish yet about 3 big topics. furthermore i'm not attend so many class from the begin as i have to manage my brother's study here.my hearts was so anxiety when seeing my others friends who always done grabbing the subject matter.i know i am not tough enough to keep my spirit and i wish somebody will come beside me to give same care and spirit..

sometimes i am really sad about me because i know i was a kind who really admired a lot attention from others.i know i was a kind of "manja kededek" as my mothers told me.this attitude really worsen me because i always desire someone to take care of me..;(

can i have someone who send a sms says
"goodluck anis!you can do it!"
"nis,caiyouk2!"
"nis,study ok?"
"nis,be calm.focus your mind"

of course i can't. i can't force people to do it to me like that..;(

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it was getting late yesterday while i was arrange my study table as it was so crowded with lots of books. Suddenly when i was putting my books on the rack,i found a lovely card with lovely smell written with black ink says sending to:ANIS EZZAH ZAHIDI inside my new forensic textbook.my heart was really touched and till now i'am still not try to opened that lovely card yet.of course there is no prince charming will do that to me. and i can predict well who send me the card because "she" have been borrow my forensic textbook 10 minutes just before i found that card.


i was sad but always try to be happy as i can.
but,she knows the way to makes me happy.
thanks a lot to my bu,my beloved housemate..
i do, i really love you..


anisezzahzahidi,
25/11,2.11 am,
mansoura.

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tag =)

tibe2 rase nk buat tag sue ni.cam best je.hihi.


^_^v



1.)HOW OLD ARE U?
sweet 21 years old =)


2)ARE U SINGLE?
masih sepenuhnya belongs to my beloved family ;)


3)AT WHAT AGE DO YOU THINK U'LL GET MARRIED?
25 i think! =)


4)DO YOU THINK YOU WILL BE MARRYING THE PERSON YOU ARE WITH NOW?
erk!


5)IF NOT, WHO DO YOU WANT TO MARRY?
a man who loves me with all his heart.
a man who never makes me hearts cry.
a man who can lead me to find the truth.
a man who really inspired me in everything.
a man who can accept everything about me.
a perfect man who can speak france,arabic and english very well.!kat mne nak cari nih sue..;)
and of course a man who makes my life to be happy.

*i wish to meet him*

6)WHO WILL BE YOUR BRIDEMAID AND BESTMAN?
bridemaids :of course my lovely sister tp mcm muda lg je.she is only thirteen now!hihi
bestman : of course my romantic daddy ;)

7)DO YOU WANT A GARDEN OR BEACH OR TRADITIONAL WEDDING?
i think garden. its a nice shoot to be captured kan ;))


8) WHERE DO YOU PLAN TO GO ON HONEYMOON?
can i go to the moon and seeing the most brighter star with my lovely partner..;)


9)HOW MANY GUEST DO YOU THINK U WILL INVITE?
everyone


10)WILL THAT INCLUDE UR 'EX'ES?
i don't have ex


11)HOW MANY LAYER OF CAKE DO YOU WANT?
xkesah.hihi.


12)WHEN DO YOU WANT TO GET MARRIED? MORNING OR EVENING?
nikah?
morning..


13)NAME THE SONG/TUNE U WOULD LIKE TO PLAY ON YOUR WEDDING DAY?
piano..


14)DO YOU PREFER FINE DINING OR JUST FORK AND SPOON? KNIFE?
fine dining.


15) CHAMPAGNE OR RED WINE?
excuse me!!


16)HONEYMOON RIGHT AFTER THE WEDDING OR DAYS AFTER THE WEDDING?
?@##$%^&**())))


17)MONEY OR HOUSEHOLD ITEMS?
both.



18)HOW MANY KID WOULD U LIKE TO HAVE?
as many as i can.huh!


19)WILL YOU RECORD YOUR HONEYMOON IN DVD/CD?
yes.its a memorable.


THE WEDDING TO KNOW NEXT?
kawan-kawan blogger sekalian,
kalau anda nak buat tag ni...
silakan ya ^^,(ikut SUE sue=)

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offline

off to cairo nak raya.

tp xtau jadi dak ni.

cam jem je.

huh =))

seronoknya raya one family.weeee

^_^v

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woman's soul




Last night i was doing spa with bu, my housemate.mmg seronok abis!.we are scrabbing using our traditional secret,bunga tanjung and bunga rambai.rasa hilang sumea lenguh-lenguh badan ni.aishhh pompuan mmg kene jagalah kan body ni.thats what my grandmamma say..itu belum bersalin lagi,setiap kali bersalin tu berapa byk urat putus and rosak.
wah,besarnya pengorbanan wanita and of course its was referred to our mother.

i just remember my talk with nabila;s mother when she stay in our home in egypt last winter.

nabila's mother: "bila u all dah besar nanti u all terfikir2 balik mcm umi yg sebenarnya peranan terbesar kita ni as wanita adalah melahirkan baby,kerja lain2 tu sampingan je.without woman,siapalah nak sambung nasab keturunan lelaki"

me:yeke umi!? i'm a bit shocked because selama ni mmg langsung xterpk like that.

me:patutlah dulu2 anak dara umur 13,14 tahun da terus kahwin kan umi.lani je pompuan dapat kedepan menuntut ilmu tinggi2,capai cita2,tapi bila dah berfamly..tugasnya tetap sama as isteri and ibu kan umi.

nabila's mother: "that's it.mmg betol.wanita lah yang melahirkan harta akhirat buat lelaki dan dirinya sendiri.And of course kamu as perempuan2 ini harus sedar diri ni bukan dicipta dgn sia2 bahkan tersangatlah besar peranannya".

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forget about mother-daughter conversation.

after taking bath,we do have a conversation with firdaus who just came back from her community class. interested in her story when she was doing attachment in O&G(Obsteric and Gynecology) department in HKB during summer break last august making me totally forget about my planned to sleep early at that night.Cases by cases about normal delivery and caeserian i heard from firdaus.in spite of that, i also learn from her how to push out the baby in a right way.(macam lah nis ni nak beranak dah.hahahaha).scary!.(^_^)v

One of the most interesting cases that i heard from firdaus is about a woman who was delievering her baby but having a complication because she have hypertension.at that time the mother may get a convulsion.and doctors says that nyawa baby and mother is about fifty fifty(50 50).at that time the doctor said that the husband have to choose whether to save his wife's life or his baby.but at that time,the doctor can't decide yet because the husband is not beside his wife instead of another person who maybe the woman's worih(waris pronoun in loghat kelantan).

hearing this story makes a cold shiver ran down my spine,my heart pumping too fast lud dup lup dup! and my palm was getting trembling like an aspen leaf.thinking about the husband feeling making my eyes flood with tears..

besarnya ujian her husband ketika itu!
Semoga Allah memberikannya kekuatan..

this plot of story was not finished by firdaus because she said she have to go back home from the hospital at that time.oh!firdaus!u make me so berdebar ok!but firdaus say that dont worry because if the doctor have to make decision of course the team work will safe the mothers's life because nyawa emak sudah ada dlm tangan but the baby life we dont know and can't predict it well.

how difficult to be a doctor actually.=(
we have to working and safe people life.

but in everything doctors do,
Allah yang menentukan segalanya..
kita hanya dapat mencari penawar,
tetapi yang menyembuhkan dan menyelamatkan hanyalah Allah S.W.T..

cerita yg sungguh memberikan seribu pengajaran..=)))

how our mother bertarung nyawa to give a birth.hukhuk..

btw,thanks firdaus for a nice story..=))

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tamparan




ah!!!tengah serabut gilo dgn diri sendiri.

uiii cik Anis sila lah ambil tindakan!
takkan nak macam ni sampai hujung tahun.
kan dah tahu kesannya.

kalau still buat2 xtahu.
xtahula apa nak jadi.
resultnya kene tanggung sendiri.

aishhh budak ni.
kalau mama ada.
mesti kene berleter "mcm mne nak berjaya!"

waduh..


wahai hati tolonglah kuat!
xkan nak ulang kesilapan yang sama lagi.
sayangilah diri.
fikir masa depan.
tanggungjawab yang harus di galas.
yang penting harus tahu.
yang awak boleh!

harus ubah apa yg kene ubah.
harus sedar hakikat dan erti kehidupan ini.
jangan la masih bermimpi2.
xkan bila terlambat baru hendak sedar.
bukankah itu satu kerugian yang besar.

lost time is never found!

wahai cik anis ezzah
awak tu dah besar
kene lah bertindak dgn matang
kenelah bijak menjalani kehidupan
sedar2lah tanggungjawab seharian.

kalau mama ada ni mesti kene berleter lagi
"macam mana nak berkat hidup kalau xbuat apa yang kene buat!"

wahai cik anis
sedar2lah dari mimpi!!

nis kuat semangat!
nis kene jadi orang berguna!
kene sentiasa belajar!
banyak bende yang boleh belajar!
dan harus belajar!

harus hentikan perkara sia2!
ayuh anis!!
bangkitlah!!!

(^_^)v

p/s: maaf kepada yang tidak berkenaan.hihihi..

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ganbatte





Promise yourself to be strong that
nothing can disturb your peace of mind,
Look at the sunny side of everything
and make your optimism come true
Think only of the best
Work only for the best and expert only the best.
Forget the mistakes of the past
and press on the greater achievement of the future..

this words really mean to me. i just found it yesterday from my housemate who we called her as miss jiji. thank you darling..=)

sejak dua menjak ni, my life become so ruined. i know i can't led this happen continues and i'm hoping that i can manage all things in proper way..

caiyoukk nis!

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ups

Suddenly i get a spirit to starting blogging again. reading ima's story at her blog really makes me happy. And i really wish our happiness in this friendship will be never ending. =)

2 weeks passed so quick and i really happy begin my new life as 4th year medical student. Although there is many big problems that i must settle down but the joyful and cheer that Allah brings to me was really grateful.Alhamdulillah..

Studying ENT (ear nose and throat) makes me really interested in this subject matter. growing as child that always having a ear problem during school times give me wonderful experience to imagine during studying this subject. one by one all the memories comes through out my mine. doing ear wash when i was eleven , having bad conductive hearing lost when i was thirteen and finally have to get treatment in specialist really makes me love to know about ear more and more.

betapa susaHnya study in class with ear problem dulu makes me feel that anugerah telinga yang Allah kurniakan teramatlah bernilai..Alhamdulillah..

forget about ENT.


hati ini terlalu bersyukur,
dalam susah untuk melangkah,
Engkau kurniakan aku teman,
yang dahulunya penyuluh,
tetapi jauh memberi kekuatan,
untuk aku terus berdiri,
menemani aku,
mencari erti sebuah nilai
layar kehidupan ini..

Segala Puji-Pujian Bagi Allah..
terima kasih
mengurniakan aku
keluarga yang amat ku sayangi..

sayangilah keluarga kerana disitu ada sumur cinta yg setia sampai bila2! =)

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